what happens when a meant to be is not being what it was meant to be? what if the vision of how your heart would be happy was 2 steps to the left of you and you kept stepping right? is their a way to get what you want in life no matter what or at sometime do you have to say the time is time. if quitters never win and winners never quit then why would someone quit on what they want to win, no matter what the situation is. is their a “line” that you can’t cross morally or do you drop morals against others and substitute it for your own happiness?
if you don’t know me by now i am a man who gets what he wants or dies trying to. but im dead inside about an issue so if i feel that way does it mean i already died trying to? or does it mean i haven’t lived long enough to try and get my chance?
the only secret that will ever be kept to myself is the one that i am typing in this blog to you right now. im slowly seeing an opportunity appear before me and the choices are to either pursue the situation and keep following up or pretend it isn’t happening in front of my face. theres so many words to describe whats going on but at the same time you could be even more descriptive by using less words. words dont express feelings, words express how you feel. confused? so am i.
some of these thoughts i feel like a criminal for having them but at the same time its addicting to act juvenile. its a rush to have something only you have to show to only yourself. its a great feeling knowing that you are your own bestfriend in a scenerio keeping the deepest secret of all time.
judging by this picture above, yes, the heart is missing something. the heart is missing more than something, its missing half of itself. i feel as if im no longer in search for the other half. i think it found me. i dont know when it will find me, but i know it did. i can feel it. has anyone ever had that feeling? where they feel good out of nowhere and know that everything is going to be ok with things from the last few years you thought werent going to be?
so, im ready. im waiting. im here. im stable. im caring.
im yours.
-cash money.
I used to think that Cash’s blogs just depressed me. But now I’m realizing they all make a lot of sense. And this post just makes me feel happy for him and where he’s going. Good luck with everything, Cash. Love, a fan whose day you made this past summer with just a hug and a tweet. Thank you.
